Harvest Patch Shandy and grown out nails. Have you tasted this beer? Yes, I drink a beer every now and then. I’m still christian. This one is new for me. It’s smooth and Fallish with just enough sweetness. As I sit here on the back porch, feeling the cooler breeze than normal, I am reminded of Fall, another season.
Another season. This season. This season hasn’t been smooth. It has felt long and drawn out…kind of like grown out nails with rough raised edges. However, we must not deny the share of sweetness the season has in deed had. In fact I just posted an update on our sweet Victoria who fought long and hard the last couple of years and BEAT cancer! That’s where our sweetness has come from: seeing God’s presence in it all and all the good we have to be thankful for. So much to be thankful for. So much so that I try to overlook the drawn out weary hard times we have been struggling with. There are a lot of things going on in our lives right now, a lot of unknowns, a lot of uncertainty, and just some things we would love to control. One of those things is our finances. My husband has been without a job for six months now. Six months. That’s surreal to me as I type it. How have we survived? I would have never thought a family our size could. Any family for that matter. How? Why? What? When?
How? ONLY with God! Every time our bank account is cents away from being negative…there comes another opportunity for my husband. The opportunities have been temporary…but just enough…until the next time. Thank You God.
Why? Who knows. We may never know. We have an idea. God is teaching us patience. He’s teaching us trust. He’s drawing us closer to Him. He’s reminding us who is in control. He’s reminding us of His love. He’s reminding us of the only “need” we really have…to know and trust Him. Thank You God.
What? What’s next? What do you have for us God? I pray daily and nightly that God would bring my husband a career where first and foremost, God would be glorified, but also a career that would provide consistent income for our family, less stress and less worry, a career where he is around other christians, where he can share with the lost, a career that wouldn’t only provide for our family, but one that would allow us to help others. This is our hearts.
When? How much longer? “We” think we’ve been more than ready. Exploring countless opportunities, but nothing concrete. We continue to learn patience. Most days we have peace, we have joy, we have faith. The other days…they are long…we grow tired, weary and fearful. I’m just being honest. We are real, we are normal. We are still christian. Thank You God.
But we don’t ever doubt HIM. His Word continues to draw us in. We cling to Him. We cry out to Him. We know He has never left us and never will. In fact, it is during our trials that we feel even closer to Him than before. But still, they are hard. They are long. They are scary at times. Yet, we know He is with us. He sees us. Thank You God.
We want stability, Jesus!
We look around. We are so grateful. Not for “stuff”. Yes, we are thankful for our stuff also, but that is not what I’m referring to. To just name a few, we are thankful for: the roof over our heads, friends and family that love us and pray for us, those that help us, doctors who love Jesus, medicine, a home full of giggles and headstands, sweaty little boys, young hearts who desire Jesus, a close family, a strong marriage, sunshine and rain…Seasons. We are grateful for His continued provision. He as provided and loved us through every second of it all. We know He will continue. This is just another season. Each season will come with unknowns, some easier than others. We are not in control…But HE is! We must remain faithful, look to the bigger picture, remember His promises, know that there is hope, and cling to Him….Jesus.
Life may not always taste sweet like honey I am reminded. There will always be the tart of the lemons in this life. But a much sweeter life awaits. That is His promise. We know the One in control. We love Him. We trust Him. We have stability in Him!
It’s still hard. We still have emotions, some we feel guilty for having. We aren’t perfect. We are still His. We are still Christian. Nothing and no one can take that away.
Therefore, we will not let the enemy steal our joy.
We trust You God.
Today we choose joy.
Tomorrow I pray we are able to do the same.
With Him, we can.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” John 14:27
Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always. Psalm 105:4
Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me. Psalm 63:7-8